This is the fifth installment of the erotica series Constellations, about finding and keeping kink connections and navigating polyamorous love.
Content notes: sub/dom dynamics, daddy/girl dynamics, polyamory negotiation
An hour into their picnic date with Ella, the anxiety Bennett had felt leading up to it was starting to wane. First dates were never easy, but Ella was laughing and curious with her shining eyes, and asking so many questions. The fluttering in Bennett’s chest was starting to feel more like excitement and hope, that they might actually be compatible, that they might want the same things, rather than fear they would discover they were wrong for each other.
Ella had urged Bennett onto their back, pulling their arm once gently, and Bennett felt the electric connection of just that brief touch. But now, Ella’s hand was not touching Bennett’s, in a way that was very deliberately not touching, but almost touching, and Bennet was very aware of the centimeters between th…
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Sinclair Sexsmith (they/them) is “the best-known butch erotica writer whose kinky, groundbreaking stories have turned on countless queer women” (AfterEllen), who “is in all the books, wins all the awards, speaks at all the panels and readings, knows all the stuff, and writes for all the places” (Autostraddle). Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for the Lambda Literary Award. Sinclair identifies as a white non-binary butch dominant, a survivor and an introvert. Follow their writings at Sugarbutch Chronicles.
Sinclair has written 41 articles for us.